Update

The situation warranted addressing the media at some point, yesterday was that day. Given what’s happened over the past three months the discussion was not going to go anyone’s way in the end.

Suffice to say it’s over, and I am rehabbing and doing everything possible to get healthy and pitch again. Were there disagreements? Sure. Does that matter now? Absolutely not. The course of action has been laid out and I am dead set on making this work.

I will pitch again, and win, but it will be on a timetable I just don’t know yet.

Anyone looking for an angle, and by the posts there are quite a few, other than what the situation really is are wrong and getting more wrong every post. There was no $$ angle, there was no deception. I’ve done many dumb things and said even dumber things in my life, but I’m ok saying I’ve been a man of my word my entire life. When I screw up, and that’s not a rarity, I have never had issues with being called out.

I negotiated the deal healthy, and in good faith. Things went south, that sucks, but that’s also life sometimes. If it does turn out that I don’t pitch again there is not one regret in the world I could have. What the Lord has allowed my family and I to see and experience over the past 22 years exceeds immeasurably what I could have dreamed up at the beginning.

The Red Sox were never in the dark and knew the first day there were problems. There have been many lengthy discussions and a lot of dialog. I wish to God I wasn’t where I am, but that’s not going to change anything, to call this unfortunate or unlucky is a stretch I think, there are millions of people with true problems in life a lot worse off than I am, or we are. The club will certainly survive, I just hope I can get back and help at some point.

At the end of the day this really is and was a business decision on their behalf, and regardless of what you think that’s the way it is, and has been. At the moment they are out 8 million dollars for a guy that cannot pitch, that can’t be a good thing. I’d bet that I’ll figure out some way to validate this entire thing when it’s all said and done. If you don’t like that, or believe that, then feel free to bet against me, it won’t be the first time.

As far as life now, the day is pretty standard. I am at the park between 6-6:30 each morning and starting at 7 am on a regimented shoulder program followed by strength/cardio work with our strength coach Dave Page. Not really pushing the shoulder hard right now as Mike builds some foundation through exercise that will allow us to strengthen areas that must be addressed before we move to the next steps.

As far as the team goes, I will post a few early observations and some daily/weekly stuff as we start to move into full squad stuff and games.  I don’t question for a second that this team is fully loaded to repeat as World Champions, now it comes down to getting ready, staying healthy and maintaining that chemistry that has formed with this great mix of guys.

My shoulder

Speculation is rampant right now. I see the Sox just released a statement.

At the time we negotiated the 2008 contract I passed all physical exams and testing, as well as the MRI the club required me to take. I knew in my heart of hearts that the extra time I was giving my arm to rest this winter would in fact be the cure for what I went through the entire 2007 season. I had a strong desire to not have to go through multiple cortisone injections in my shoulder for another year.  There was absolutely no reason for anyone involved to believe I would be anything other than completely healthy and ready for the 2008 baseball season.

Things have changed since then and I contacted the team early last month with concerns and we’ve been working diligently to resolve them.

There have been disagreements these past few weeks in an effort to provide me with a solution that would allow me to pitch as much as possible during the 2008 season. At no time did I ever consider taking a course of action against the clubs wishes. In the end, regardless of who agreed with whom, I have chosen the clubs course of action and will vigorously pursue any and every option I can to be able to help this team to another World Series title in 2008.

Please understand that a lot of what has been reported is not true. When the club feels it’s appropriate to further discuss the details of this issue publicly I will elaborate but I need to make it clear that Dr Morgan did NOT diagnose me with a tear of the rotator cuff at any time during this process, nor did he recommend rotator cuff surgery.

Dr Craig Morgan is inarguably one of the most highly respected shoulder experts in the world. I’m here because 13 years ago he was the only person on the planet to actually get what was wrong with me and correctly diagnose, and then treat me. He’s been on the cutting edge of treating throwing shoulders for over a decade. Much of the stuff that’s now seen as cutting edge treatment and therapy he was doing 10 years ago. I trusted him with my career then, and always will.

After being diagnosed by the Red Sox medical staff I sought a second opinion, as anyone would, and when it became clear there was disagreement (which is not uncommon by the way), I agreed to see an independent Doctor from a list the Red Sox provided me, for the third opinion.

At this time I have agreed to abide with the clubs wishes in hopes that will provide the results they believe it will.

On a resounding day of victories. I am proud to know the man and proud to see others believing in him as well. I am not sure what the overall turnout was yesterday but I am hearing it was large, which is fantastic.

Interesting to hear the political ‘experts’ talk about what it all means now, and down the road. Some believe McCain wrapping it up early will damage his chances. I still believe if you hear the man speak and get to know him a little bit none of this will matter, but that’s my opinion only.

Just Vote

Regardless of your political affiliation, get out and vote today if you are in one of the states holding their primary. If you want to come here and scream bloody murder about politics or opinions on politics at least bring the credibility of having voted with you.

FYI I cast my vote for one John McCain at 7am this morning and was happy to see quite a few people at the polls.

For anyone that just is not sure who to vote for, I urge you to get a chance in the coming months to at least hear Senator McCain speak. If you cannot back him after hearing him speak that’s cool, but I’d ask to at least give him that much.

Anyone that can rile up members of both parties in some ways tells me that’s a good thing. While he’s considered a Republican in many cases, he’s not a dyed in the wool politician, which I love.

Mistakes? Yep. Missteps? Yep. Passion? Check. Common Sense? Check. Integrity? Double check. Ability to cross party lines to get things done? I believe he’s the ONLY one in this election capable of doing that and beyond all things that’s what I want from our next President. Someone with the ability to get things done regardless of personal agenda or party affiliation.

If you are a McCain supporter check out this piece, if you are undecided check it out as well

So every all star game each player is given one of their home jerseys to autograph for a charity auction for the MLBPA.

Each year you autograph that jersey and afterwards they collect them and auction them off.

The year in question, Sean gets his jersey, and somehow he is out a jersey or two and ends up autographing the only jersey he has left.

Now he realizes that not only does he not have the jersey for the auction, but he’s autographed the jersey he has to play the all star game in…..

He tells the story and it generates a huge laugh, and I then comment that since he autographed it, he should take a black sharpee into the field with him when he plays, and have each player that gets to first base autograph his shirt as well.

He actually TOOK the black sharpee in his pocket, onto the field with him. I am not sure who he told, but I know he told more than one player about it, and it was hilarious to watch guys at first base start cracking up as he told them the story.

So in the end he got the better of everyone because he had players autographing his jersey while they were standing on first base.

Good stuff and again, this guy is one in a million. Nicest guy you’d ever want to meet and a hell of a player. He’ll be a great addition on and off the field here.

I heard yesterday that we signed Sean Casey. To have someone of his talent come here as a potential platoon player and role filler is huge.

I’ve known Sean and competed against him for a long time. I think he’s gotten the best of me more than I on him.

I have never had him as a teamate until now but I can assure you this guy is pretty much one of the classiest and most respected players in all of baseball.

In addition to being as likable as anyone I’ve ever met, I’ve never heard anyone have anything to say other than what a fantastic teammate and person he and his wife are.

This is a huge piece, even though it might not appear so on the surface. Theo continues to show extraordinary ability to bring players here that most likely could play everyday somewhere else to fill vital and important roles on this club.

All in all a huge signing as much off the field and in the clubhouse, if not more so, than on the field.

Welcome to Sox Nation Sean!

P.S. Remind me to blog about the All Star story I have on Sean when I get a chance, incredibly funny and great insight into why he’s such a funny and great guy.

Here, with his permission, is an email from Holly Youngs father. While I would prefer to cut and paste portions of this email, out of respect to her dad I have posted his email in its entirety.

Dear Curt and Shonda:
My wife Carolyn and daughter Michelle appreciate the kind thoughts from both of you , including the message on your blog and lovely arrangement you sent.  We’re trying to see if any of the cousins have a picture of it.  The funeral director did a wonderful job, perhaps motivated even more by the fact that he has a daughter who graduated from high school with Holly.  His family goes to the church near the HS where Holly and some of her teammates frequently worshiped before going out together. 
 
When it became apparent in the fall of 2004 that Holly had a leg injury, we identified with the injury you had just worked through during the World Series, and wondered if the diagnosis could possibly be the same.  Her trainers had progressed through the modalities of treatment appropriate to their expertise before calling in the athletic department doctor, who confirmed the trainers suspicion of tendonitis.  When Holly could no longer sleep at night, the health center said to see an orthopedic surgeon.  She was seen by Dr. Ken Leavitt, a podiatrist in an office specializing in skeletal problems. In the day that changed our lives, Holly received x-rays, an ultra-sound and finally an MRI at 11:30 at night at New England Baptist.  He was shaken; as a podiatrist he would never expect to see a case of Ewing’s sarcoma.  He took it upon himself to arrange an appointment with the chief of orthopedic oncology at Beth-Israel.  He instructed us to pick up the films at his office first, and when it appeared we would be late, called Holly’s cell phone.   My GPS said we were ¾ mile away.  He came out to the lobby to meet us.
 
Holly scanned her MRI films for her scrap book and named her tumor “tumoritis.”
 
Failure to diagnose is well documented in the medical literature on Ewing’s sarcoma, a rare pediatric bone cancer with symptoms which are frequently misleading.  When not promptly diagnosed, it often confers a poor prognosis. 
 
Here you are well positioned to make another contribution by helping to spread the word to athletes, trainers, coaches, doctors, administrators: if sports injuries are not getting better find out why.  It could save a life.
 
We rejoice in the good news about another young Ewing’s patient, Peter DeSpain, whose cause you also championed in your blog last spring. I see he got a clean bill of health when examined last month.
 
We also rejoice in the victories Mike Lowell and John Lester have had over cancer.  Professional athletes whose health is so important to their careers take advantage of the best diagnostic tools medicine can offer at the first sign of injury.  Our adolescent athletes, used to playing through minor injuries, and maybe wanting to prove their toughness, often do not recognize a serious underlying malignancy and tough it out.  Indeed, such conditions are often missed by trainers, coaches, and even doctors when treatment is sought. 
 
How rare is Ewing’s?  Consider filling Michigan Stadium (capacity about 107,000) three times with children and adolescents under the age of 21.  Now pick one and say “You have Ewing’s sarcoma.”  That is the national statistic.  But on Cape Cod, Ewing’s has occurred at almost seven times the national average over a ten year period.  In contrast, the Woburn leukemia cancer cluster documented in the film “Civil Action” was 2.3 times the expected level.
 
You saw young Jordan Leandre running the bases at Fenway Park during the Jimmy Fund Telethon last August.  He had Ewing’s and lives 1.75 mile from us here in Dennis.  Jordan has had a successful outcome, but last January we lost a young Cape Codder, Sandwich High School hockey player Jeff Hayes.  Like Holly, he toughed it out until the pain was too great, and a cure could not be delivered.  Jeff and Holly were diagnosed the same month.  His bravery was honored by the Bruins during intermission of a game with the Penguins.  Many of the Bruins rode in the Pan-Mass challenge to support Jeff.  At the start of the 2006-2007 school year, Sandwich HS had three Ewing’s cases (two successfully treated) in its population of 1030 students; Jeff played hockey; one of the other two played field hockey.
 
I frequently surf the web searching for news of Ewing’s sarcoma.  I often find other adolescent athletes across the country from football, hockey, soccer, and even ballet who have Ewing’s. Having become educated, trained, and experienced as a research scientist, I try to avoid unsubstantiated speculation, but it is proper to make scientific inferences to be tested later. My statistics are far from rigorous, and I understand a lot of youth are engaged in athletics, and maybe athletes get more publicity.  But there is also an epidemic of childhood obesity, and I’m just not seeing “couch potatoes” getting Ewing’s. 
 
Holly enjoyed the support she received from you (you replaced Johnny D), Tek, Wake, Coco, and many others I’m sure I don’t know about, because I wasn’t there.  She started chemo the day after Wake brought the World Series trophy through Children’s Hospital.  She was also fond of Mike Gordon, his wife, and particularly his children, who she adored.  It was the tickets he gave the Jimmy Fund Clinic we took to the ring ceremony on opening day.  He provided the tickets to the box near the dugout we had the night Wells was ejected; during the game Bill Mueller handed her a ball that had been foul tipped back to the on-deck circle. Patrick Foley came down to Children’s one afternoon with a package of Red Sox gifts.  Please convey the appreciation of Carolyn, Michelle, and me to your teammates and the rest of the Red Sox organization for all the kindness shown to Holly over the last three years.
 
She also enjoyed the support of volleyball players at all levels, from as far away as China.  Over one hundred college volleyball teams sent their team logos to UNH with players signatures and messages of support.  Some were joined by teams from other sports.  We hung them on the walls of the hospital room, and as the new nurses came on duty, would ask them where they went to school and look for their school’s messages.
 
Not just her coaches, of which there were dozens, but coaches of other sports came by Monday to offer their condolences.  I was particularly happy to see Brown football coach Phil Estes, whose daughter Megan was the manager of Holly’s volleyball team.  He recently lost a football player to Ewing’s.  This fits into the theme I was developing earlier.
 
After hearing a dozen times how wonderful a girl Holly was, I realized that all these people had their own fingerprints on her life, and I made that my response.  I also let the coaches and athletic director know my feelings…there are so many people demeaning athletics, but we have been fortunate to have experienced all the good that should come from sports, and have a responsibility to foster its continuance.
 
I have spent many hours these last few months in the living room where we set up a bed so Holly could be near all of us.  I keep my laptop there, and have been analyzing data from previous Cape Cod cancer studies, and advocating for continued research.  As tragic as these cases are, their study may result in the first risk factor being identified for Ewing’s sarcoma.  To my left shoulder is the 8×10 framed picture from spring training of you with your arm around Holly.
 
As I said at the outset, I think you are well positioned to get the word out for the sake of the adolescent athletes:  if the pain is not getting better, find out why.
 
Thanks again for all you have done.
 
For all of the family,
 
Bernie Young

Please read.

Not sure how many of you here have been following along since the blog began back in Spring Training.

If you have, and you remember the beautiful young woman who visited us from Dana Farber, you’ll remember I posted a picture of her and I.

Holly Young was her name, and she passed away last night at the tender age of 22.

One of those people you meet that no matter how beautiful they look on the outside you get a glimpse of the inner strength and fortitude, and it blows you away.

Her parents are asking that in lieu of other memorials, her friends consider donations to:

Solid Tumor Research, Jimmy Fund Clinic, 44 Binney St. , Boston MA 02115, 

or to

Holly Young Volleyball Scholarship Fund, c/o Guidance Dept, DY Regional High School, 210 Station Ave, S. Yarmouth MA 02664.

The members of the Red Sox send our deepest sympathies and condolences to the Young family.

God Bless you and yours in this horrible time, may the Lord give you the strength you need and the wisdom you seek.

Shonda’s charity, the Shade Foundation (www.shadefoundation.org) is looking for people to run the Boston Marathon and raise money for SHADE. Runners must raise $3,500 or more to qualify. You can find all relevant information at the website and thanks in advance to anyone taking up the fight for such a worthy cause.

If you are a McCain fan the last few days had to be good ones. Learning from missteps in the past I think the Senator just went to S.C., spoke to the people, they heard him and I think got what I got, and he won.

As I stated earlier, please, if you do care about the upcoming election, if you are not dead set on who you are voting for, if this matters and you have a chance, just hear Senator McCain speak. He may not give you the answer you are looking for, he may not be in agreement with you on a stance or an issue, but the man is honest to a fault, to a fault. And for all the “Anti-War” folks who feel the need to rant and rave and call the Senator a “war monger” I’d tell you to do it in a forum with other suck ups or liars, not here. I know this man very well, “War Mongering” is not anywhere near this man as a character trait.

I’d argue that he’s pretty much got the experience and life lessons to be the exact opposite. If anyone on this planet would be against war you’d have to guess it would be Senator McCain. Too many people are ignorant or just refuse to take an objective look at what he means and says. He’s not pro-war, he’s pro-American. The difference to me is that he’s one of the FEW politicians that absolutely knows ANYONE promising an immediate withdrawal of our armed forces is either

A) A liar trying to get elected to public office

B) Horribly callous, irresponsible and ignorant to the lives of the men and women serving in the armed forces.

I have stated many times before in this blog I want our men and woman to come home, but not until the people in charge of the military forces believe there is enough stability in the Middle east for us to leave and not have to come back. Do you not honestly believe that every time some wing nut like Nancy Pelosi spews about the past mistakes of the Bush administration, the horrific lies told to us at the start of the war about our intents and purpose, there aren’t tens of thousands, if not millions, of hard core fanatical extremists saying “Just a little longer, if we can hang on just a little longer the Americans will leave, and we’ll turn this country back into what we need it to be to allow us to thrive once again”.

I cannot be the only person that thinks this way? I don’t want the war to last one day more, not one, but can you honestly say that we need to elect someone to office who has a middle east withdrawal as a major piece of their election agenda? I can’t. Right or wrong I can’t.

I don’t have all the answers, neither does Senator McCain, and he’ll tell you as much, but neither does Mrs. Clinton, Mr. Obama (the other person of unparalleled character in this upcoming election imo) and neither does anyone else running for the next Presidency.

Anyone wanting to toss out character issues or past mistakes that have to do with Senator McCain please don’t do so blindly, because I promise you your candidate has as much, likely more, dirty laundry than he has or ever will.

But like all other political posts here, the message at the end of the day is vote, if you care enough to bitch and moan about my endorsement of Senator McCain you better not piss away your chance to vote and have your voice be heard. That’s the thing at the end of every day that will and always has separated us from so many countries in this world, for better and for worse. You can write, and I can write, and we can talk and argue about these topics with passion and care, and then we can go home. No one in our families will be jailed for us voicing political opinions, or arguing them, no one gets lynched, shot or raped, or murdered.

The free people in the Middle East deserve the very same rights and opportunities. Hell every person on this planet is born with that right, what human has the authority to take that away?

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